This girl acted as if she was my friend, wanted to be my lover and suddenly couldn't take being my friend or lover and decided to ditch me. She would be happy one week and then the next, she would be mad at me for some stupid reason. I guess she didn't like it when I didn't want to go out every weekend and get trashed; that I wanted to stay home with my kids. I never got to get out too much because at the time I was living with family and if my kids are home I'm not going to dump them off on my grandmother. No, I actually like to spend time with my kiddos. So that was one thing that pissed her off. She wanted constant attention. I always offered for her to come over and when the kids went to sleep I would have one or two drinks with her, but that wasn't good enough. Or she could wait until the kids were on their weekends at their dad's.  Another thing that pissed her off was that I would not prank call people with her. I wouldn't partake in little stupid myspace games with her. I don't have time for that shit. I don't wanna rain on someone's parade, especially someone I don't even know. 
Long story short, I would never forgive her for what she did. She teamed up with my son's deadbeat (DEADBEAT MIND YOU) father and made up all kinds of lies. She stuck her nose where it didn't belong. She actually called DSS and told them I was a drug addict, that I burned my kids with cigarettes and that my boyfriend was a pedophile as was his stepfather. Can you believe the balls on this bitch? So, that is unforgiveable. Not to mention the kiddie myspace shit she started with me. You attack me, that's fine, whatever. You involve my kids, you better lock your fucking door and pray to your imaginary friend you call "God" cause you will not go unpunished.

Tags: writer's block
Current Location: Mi Casa
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: Break Your Face Bitch

Brush my teeth!!!

Tags: writer's block
Current Location: Almost To My Bed
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Mr. Sandman

I am a rock girl at heart, but I love all genres of music. 
Lately, there are certain songs that inspire me. For example ICP's "Take Me Home". Whenever I listen to it, I really think about my life; where I've been, where I am and where I'm going. I take time to think and appreciate everything in my life. Another song that gets me in a good, inspirational mood is Natasha Beddingfield's "Unwritten". It makes me realize my individualism and makes m appreciate how unique I am. Also, the freedoms we have to be who we are,  I cannot even begin to express how thankful I am for these freedoms. I love music and I have many friends who are musicians. I go to as many live shows as I can. I'm always rocking or dancing to the beat, music really moves me and gets me out of any slump. Like my friend Mary said "Music is the best medicine."

Tags: inspiration, music, writer's block
Current Location: Mi Casa
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: ICP

One of my nicknames is Beena. I got this name from my friends in high school. Specifically my friend Tabby. She was singing that rhyme with my name "Serena Beena Bo Feena Lil Meena." Beena stuck with me. Then it was Beena The Evil Chipmunk. Chipmunk because I am so little. I am very short, def shorter than anyone else in shop. (Shop was Culinary Arts, I went to a vocational high school.) 
My other nickname is Leigh. My best friend Kayleigh and I were insepearble. Her mom started to call her Kay and me Leigh. Kay lives in Florida now but I talk to her on a weekly basis. I miss her so... :(

Tags: nickname, writer's block
Current Location: Mi Casa
Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

I would not go back in time for any reason. There would be no guarentee that I would have the people in my life today. I don't regret. Some dark shit has happened to me in my past, but without that, I might not be where I am today or who I am today. I would never want to risk not having my kiddos, they are happy, they are healthy, they are my everything. To go back in time and change anything, will totally alter the fabric of time and could set off a chain of catastrophic events. Fuck that shit, I will take this reality and deal with it. I will embrace what I have, love and cherish and build on it.

Tags: regret, time machines, troubleshooting, writer's block
Current Location: Mi Casa
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Star Trek Theme Music in the background (Michael is watching Star Trek)